There is nothing harder than being a mother in eastern Aleppo, said Fatemah Alabed.
“You must carry a lot of patience, you must be stronger than anyone in the world,” she said. “You must be both a father and a mother, even you must be kid to play with your children to make them feel they are not alone.”
Since the conflict began in 2011, the mother of three has watched as her children’s lives have been defined by war. Her two boys, Mohammed, 5, and Noor, 3, have known nothing but fighting.
Her eldest, 7-year-old Bana, has become a gap-toothed, pigtailed embodiment of the human toll this grinding conflict has had on the children of Syria.
Three months ago, Alabed, an English teacher with a spotty Internet connection, decided she wanted the world to hear her children’s voices and see their faces, hoping that maybe she could galvanize global support and save Aleppo.
She created a Twitter account under Bana’s name, tweeting almost daily about their life under siege. Short video clips like the one with Bana standing next to a window praying for the war to stop as blasts echoed in the distance, went viral. The 7-year-old’s take on war generated headlines and support.
“We are sure that the world listen to us, the world listen to the kids,” Alabed told CNN in an exclusive interview over Skype on Sunday.
Last month, as the regime intensified its assault on eastern Aleppo, the bombs fell closer and the tweets became more intense. On the night of November 27, a bomb reduced Bana’s home to rubble.
Soon after, the Twitter account was deactivated and the family disappeared.
They have returned to Twitter, tweeting less frequently, as some Twitter users worried about the family’s fate. Others have questioned the authenticity of the account.
Alabed said they believe their home was targeted and they have been on the run since, living in fear and hiding in an undisclosed location in what’s left of rebel-held eastern Aleppo.
“I received a lot of threatening messages in Twitter,” she said. “I feel that we are really targeted from regime people, so I can’t tell anyone. Even my parents doesn’t know where I live.”
She said she decided to speak to CNN to respond to questions and accusations of using Bana as an anti-regime propaganda tool.
“I am still here. I am real,” she said. “I am still fighting for my children’s life. We are not propaganda. We are real people. We are — we are Aleppo’s people.”
Alabed was visibly thinner compared to the last time we spoke in October, exhaustion and stress written all over her face, with black bags under her eyes.
“We don’t have enough food, even water, we don’t have clean water. We just drink one cup every day,” she said. Their daily hunt for food and water is punctuated by the explosions of bombs falling around them.
During the interview, blasts could be heard at times in the background.
Some have cast doubt over the videos, saying Bana appeared to be scripted.
Alabed does not deny helping her young daughter articulate their messages to the world.
The videos are in English so a Western audience can access them, Alabed said. And while her daughter speaks a little English, Alabed helps “to make sure that her voice reach to a lot of people,” Alabed said, while holding Bana.
Two months ago Alabed told us she would never leave eastern Aleppo, but with the regime on the verge of capturing the last of the rebel areas there, she is hoping international aid groups could help evacuate her family to safety.
“I love my Syria. I don’t want to leave it, but in these days I don’t want to stay in Syria until become calm and because there is still fight. When finish fight I will come back,” she said.
She is too scared to leave with the tens of thousands fleeing to regime-held western Aleppo.
“Maybe they take me, take my husband. Maybe they make us suffering, we see our children killed in front of our eyes. I don’t know. There is a lot of idea in my mind, so I afraid to take a chance and go out,” she said.
“We are now known and all of the people in regime know our faces and I am afraid to lose one of my kids if I flee with all the people, because they think I work against the regime,” Alabed said. “I don’t belong to any side … I was speaking about the Syrian people, about children, especially children here, how they are suffering, how they are living here in east Aleppo. We don’t want to fight anyone. I am not belong to any side, we just want to break the siege and end it and stop the bombing. This is all what we wanted.”
With a big smile, Bana showed off the two baby teeth she just lost.
“There is always bombing. Even at night the bombing is our house,” Bana said.”We were going to die.”
Her baby brother Noor can’t speak because of the bombings, Bana said.
Her face lights up when she speaks about her favorite book, Harry Potter.
Last month, author J.K. Rowling, one of Bana’s nearly quarter of a million Twitter followers, sent her an e-book as a gift.
“I love Harry Potter. Thank you, my friend J.K. Rowling,” Bana said
Bana’s answers in English are short and she waits for help from her mother, so we asked her a few questions in Arabic.
She lists the things she misses in her life. Like any girl her age, she misses her friends, her school, her home that she lost. But with little food left in eastern Aleppo, Bana said she misses fruit. “I like them a lot,” she said.
Alabed said despite the risks that came with tweeting and raising her family’s profile, she believes she has succeeded in turning attention, even briefly at times, to the suffering of eastern Aleppo’s children.
The messages they receive from people all over the world, Alabed said, have given them hope, something to look forward to.
“There is life, maybe, out of besieged Aleppo. Maybe she will get a good life, maybe she will go to school one day, maybe she will play outside in the garden, maybe she will go to the restaurant as she did in the past. When she was a baby, she used to go a lot and play in games. I hope. …”
